Once I was referred to as legit. It was my first time in a community group and my third time visiting a new church in Boston after I felt that God was guiding my life around a curve. I was probably a bit awk because none of the people I met Sunday were coming and on top of that I was the first person there and one of the last to leave this somewhat stranger’s apartment. I may be an extrovert, but I have introvert tendencies.
However, the Bible study was on point and challenging and the conversations afterward made me feel welcome. I explained what led me to the church, sang praises of the trio Beautiful Eulogy and found a fellow Z.Tao fan with whom I could be excited (read: fangirl) about his new music and films. And that’s how I became legit—by way of my love for this former Kpop boy band member turned Chinese rapper. Needless to say, I was overjoyed to have found people whom I’d enjoy having in my tribe.
This same feeling of being legit happened to me at KCON LA last week and I’m having withdrawals. Not only did I win a hi-touch pass for my ultimate bias group, VIXX, but I also got to see swangel Kevin Woo, take a photo with the awesome Sam Okyere, watch KARD’s soundcheck from a private box at the Staples Center and rave about my girl Heesun Lee and Show Me The Money. I had conversations about 슈퍼맨이 돌아왔다 (The Return of Superman), cultural reconciliation, language study tips, and food. On top of that, I met a scholar of Afro-Asian cultural production, Dr. Crystal Anderson (Dr. CeeFu), who is honestly living part of my dream. For a first time attendee at KCON, I had so much fun.
And it solidified me continuing this journey towards a PhD and beyond.
The entire weekend, I was constantly reminded of this deep love I’ve had for various cultures, especially East Asian ones and specifically Korean and Japanese, since a child. I was reminded of why I am becoming fluent in Korean and Japanese. I recognized who I am, who I was made to be, and how my heart beats for ethnic reconciliation, cross-cultural friendships and love that is not flaky or untruthful or lasts only as much as someone is made “happy.”
I was reminded that I, and being a black woman studying ethnicity and cross-cultural interactions, am too legit to quit. And that there were others around me who are just as legit.
So this is why I’M BACK, BABY! KeativeTherapy has been my brain child since 2010 and because of school and life it’s gone through many changes and been put on hold. But I say no more. Thank you to those who have subscribed, read, followed, and supported me in so many ways. Please bear with me now as I keep the site open while it’s under construction. I’m solidifying a biweekly posting schedule and other things, so please hold me to it!
Stay legit, y’all!